Thanks Lisa for all the questions!
Now I have material for at least another 5 or 6 posts!
I just had a light bulb moment tonight…
that is when something just dawns on me and usually amazes me.
It is probably really obvious to others but I must be thickheaded so it seems like such a revelation to me.
Tonight was nothing huge but it has happened to me a couple of times in the last few weeks...
All of the sudden I realize that I am satisfied, I am not hungry, I am not too full, I am just simply satisfied.
I realize that Hey, I can go to bed without that last snack, I don’t need, I really don’t want it.
I mean it usually saddens me when I realize I am almost out of points and can’t have another thing to eat.Usually this just makes me want to eat something.
But then I have these moments when I realize I don’t need to eat and it is really Okay!
This simply amazes me and for a moment I feel “normal” like this is probably how skinny people feel all the time.
But it is still new and foreign to me but I definitely welcome it! :)
I guess another light bulb moment was when I was sitting at a teachers desk in school and had a class and all of the sudden I felt a few chest pains.
I remember thinking (praying) Please Lord don’t let me die here at school. My kids will be so traumatized!
It probably was just heartburn as I am still here, but it did make me think.
But no that wasn’t what finally did it for me.
It was when I knew Tiff was following me down the overweight road and she was ready to change.
What kind of mother would I be if I wasn’t willing to give it a try too. I had nothing to lose!
Nothing but a whole bunch of weight at least!!!!
Then there was the light bulb moment that I was really losing and maybe just maybe I could really do this!
Next there was the light bulb moment that I wasn’t on a diet anymore and this was a new way of life.
I could never eat a whole pizza by myself again.
( I mean it’s not that I couldn’t I just can’t)
I can never allow myself to ignore my weight even when its going in the wrong direction I still have to face the scale and deal with it even though my personality just would like to pretend everything is fine.
Those are probably the light bulb moments I would rather ignore because sometimes it just doesn’t seem fair!
What light bulb moments have you had?
Suz
*Please Note* My friend Julie came through her surgery with flying colors! Please keep her in your prayers as she has some long weeks of recovery and healing ahead.
Awesome post!! That's exactly what I was hoping you would talk about it. Thanks so much for sharing your personal journey. You said so many powerful things in this post - I'm going to print it and tape it to my wall. Although it's simply put - it's meaning is power - I couldn't eat the whole pizza anymore - rather, I can't allow myself to do it. What a dramatic shift in thinking!!!
ReplyDeleteI have had several light bulb moments - the one that was sort of the kick off the cliff was one day I went to Wal-Mart to get my hair cut. I was wearing those pants like the NBA players wear that have the snaps on the sides. I went to sit in the hair salon chair but my hips were so big that my pants got unsnapped on both sides by the arm rests of the chair.
I think I'm attention deficit because I have such experiences and get on the band wagon, but I apparently have a balance problem because I constantly fall off the wagon.
If you talk to Julie - tell her I love her, miss her, and wish her the very best!!!!